Worship….Worship and worship….that’s what I’ve been hearing from so many months in church and in youth meeting. And it was really nice to get so many of my doubts cleared off. But now came the bigger part – to get it into practice. More important than the Sunday morning worship in church, it was necessary for me to start worshipping in my day to day life.
And as each day kept passing by, I kept thinking as to how did I worship God today. But at the end of the day, those questions weren’t getting answered. I was left confused as to whether I was found as a faithful worshipper or was I found lacking. Knowing that worship isn’t just words of praise but living a life that pleases God, for me to practice worship became more difficult.
I learnt that it’s only when you experience God daily and thus worship him that you are in a position to worship on Sunday. But at the end of the day, I needed to know what did my God mean to me? That was one question that I needed to get answer. I needed to discover my God more for worshipping him. Without that Sunday worship lacked depth and seemed empty.
In all this quest of discovering my God more and more, I was getting left behind in living a life that pleases God. But here’s what God told me then,
Behold, to obey is better than sacrifice, and to listen than the fat of rams. (I Sam. 15:22)
It’s kind of surprising, God is more interested in me obeying him than worrying about worshipping him. But then God just turned the tables. While I was out to discover my God, he told me, “Wait…I guess you got to start with the basics…Obey my Word. Let’s forget a while about worshipping me, because indirectly by obeying my Word, you will be worshipping me. You don’t need to worry about discovering me now. You’ll learn it through experience. I am not that concerned about your worship as much as I am for your Christian life.”
These words shook me and actually awakened me. Strong as they can be, it pierced my heart. But can I again leave it on paper or will I put it into practice? Should I wait for tomorrow or start today? Some questions are better left put into action than answered verbally.